finally...

so the holidays are finally over...well almost but i can't see myself really out and celebrating new years eve this year. I have to say i am glad that it is over and all the visitors have gone and it is just us again.....it is fun for like half a day and then i am ready to have my house back and my baby back...sometimes it felt like i didnt see him all day!!

we are finally getting pavers put in our back yard....honesty it is not even a yard right now but more like a dirt pit....but next week the pavers are going to be installed..YAH!! it took me hours to decide on the shape, size, design, and most of all color of the pavers and i am sure i made the wrong choice but anything will look better than mud!! i will post pictures of our beautiful new backyard when it is finished.

it has been incredible nice outside the past week ...like 85 and sunny everyday all day....while my mom was dealing with ice storms i was enjoying the beach and even getting a little sun burned!! We took dash to the park today and he went on the swings for the first time...i think he liked it. maybe it overstimulated him b/c he has not fallen asleep all day.. and is getting pretty grumpy!

a few pics

where is my christmas spirit??

i do not feel excited about the holidays..i do not have any desire to put up lights, trees, stockings, and whatever other christmas clutter i have gathered over the years....in all honesty, i hate it. Brent put up the tree and it just takes up space and the dogs run into it and the other christmas stuff just sits around and invades the space of our everyday life...i wish i could just box it all up and put it away but i think he would be disappointed...maybe it is just b/c we live in a minature house but it makes me annoyed to look at it. I havent bought a single christmas present yet...i guess i still have time but what if i just boycotted christmas this year??? dashy is too little to care and what does a 2 month child really need that we dont already have? I know i sound really negative but the whole traditions seem lost on me...maybe i will start my own that dont involve giant trees and christmas knick knacks. i like to buy presents for little children but i hate tyring to find something to buy people that i barely know just b/c they bought me something.... i really just want to make donations in people's names...last year i bought my mom a flock of chickens that went to a family in Africa from Heifer.org. I wish i had more holiday spirit but i don't think i am going to find it in the next 10 days.

i hate coldness

we just got home after 4 days in Fort Wayne and I now totally recall why I do not ever wish to live in a freezing cold climate again. I totally wasn't prepared for the weather and I think I kind of forgot what it is like when it is -1 with the windchill...i mean i walked off the airplane wearing flats with no socks and i spring jacket. i hate winter..i hate everything about it. the icy roads, the way your boogers freeze the second you step outside, how it takes the car 20 minutes to warm up, the horrible dry skin for the dry dry heat, the grayness of everything, the brown sludge that results when the snow melts, how you dress in layers and after ten minutes in a store you are sweating and about to pass out b/c it is way to hot inside, the salt that stains the bottom of your jeans....everything about it is just horrible and I cannot believe that people choose to live in such a dreary depressing climate, especially in the wonderful cultural mecca of Fort Wayne, Indiana. I am trying to think of something positive of the cold ---i guess i really really like to wear scarves...i mean if it is 50 or below here i love to put on a cute winter scarf ..i think that may be the only thing positive about it.

i will post a few pics of our trip ..... dash got to meet his cousin Cooper..who is 9 months old and GIANT...i cannot imagine dash being that big in 7 months..craziness!!