and he rolls...

so just yesterday, we are hanging out at home and doing some tummy time with baby dash and he rolls over..so i am super excited that he can roll from his front to his back and then all of a sudden he decides to roll from his back to his tummy and now he like is rolling around the floor like a crazy baby!! i don't think i am ready for him to be so mobile yet! My nephew cooper was here 2 weeks ago and he is crawling everywhere and it is so much more work and I am starting to think that mr. dash is going to be an early crawler and that is not going to be a good situation. it seems like just yesterday he was sleeping 23 hours a day and now he is rolling around our house putting nasty dog toys in his mouth!

I have a problem....

okay seriously --- i think i need to go to rehab or something ...i was just thinking about it tonight and looked at my checking account and I have seriously been to Target almost everyday this month. what is wrong with me??? i mean today i went for absolutely no reason expect that i wanted to buy dash some "baby legs" - which by the way are so adorable - and i spent over $100 and i don't even know what the hell i bought, some baby legs and some crap!! i acutally alternate between two different stores b/c i feel like the people know me and are like what the hell is that girl doing here again! do you think there is a 12 step program i could join!!??

goodbye....

death is something that is so hard to grasp and it is sad to understand how in a single moment everything changes but the world continues to spin and life goes on. my family's dog died this week and although i haven't lived at home since i was 18, zoe was still my dog. I still remember the day we got her, she was 6 weeks old and we got her after my dog Cody had died unexpectedly. She wasn't the nicest dog, her breath smelled pretty bad, she begged for food, she shedded like crazy, she hated most people, once she even bit me and i had to get stitches but she still was our dog and we loved her. In a time when our family is already in turmoil something so shocking and unexpected just hurts a little more. I know that it is just a dog and people are going through a lot worse but still makes me sad to think about her but i believe she is in a better place now, sitting in her chair looking at the squirrels outside! I just hope Allie and Rocco stay around for a long long time b/c it is almost impossible to think about my life without them!

on a brighter note...baby dash is getting so big, i weighed him today and he weighs 16 lbs!! he is starting to talk and walk.....ok not really...but sometimes it sounds like he is saying hi, so maybe just maybe he is going to be a genius! Seriously, i cannot believe how easy this baby is, even the daycare lady told me that she had never met such a happy and easy going baby, he doesn't cry unless Rocco jumps on him, he sleeps all night and loves to sleep in, he laughs and smiles and talks to his little toys.....we truely have been blessed, i keep waiting for him to change but i think he only gets happier....i am sure our next baby will be horrible and colicky so maybe we shouldn't press our luck!!

finally...

so the holidays are finally over...well almost but i can't see myself really out and celebrating new years eve this year. I have to say i am glad that it is over and all the visitors have gone and it is just us again.....it is fun for like half a day and then i am ready to have my house back and my baby back...sometimes it felt like i didnt see him all day!!

we are finally getting pavers put in our back yard....honesty it is not even a yard right now but more like a dirt pit....but next week the pavers are going to be installed..YAH!! it took me hours to decide on the shape, size, design, and most of all color of the pavers and i am sure i made the wrong choice but anything will look better than mud!! i will post pictures of our beautiful new backyard when it is finished.

it has been incredible nice outside the past week ...like 85 and sunny everyday all day....while my mom was dealing with ice storms i was enjoying the beach and even getting a little sun burned!! We took dash to the park today and he went on the swings for the first time...i think he liked it. maybe it overstimulated him b/c he has not fallen asleep all day.. and is getting pretty grumpy!

a few pics

where is my christmas spirit??

i do not feel excited about the holidays..i do not have any desire to put up lights, trees, stockings, and whatever other christmas clutter i have gathered over the years....in all honesty, i hate it. Brent put up the tree and it just takes up space and the dogs run into it and the other christmas stuff just sits around and invades the space of our everyday life...i wish i could just box it all up and put it away but i think he would be disappointed...maybe it is just b/c we live in a minature house but it makes me annoyed to look at it. I havent bought a single christmas present yet...i guess i still have time but what if i just boycotted christmas this year??? dashy is too little to care and what does a 2 month child really need that we dont already have? I know i sound really negative but the whole traditions seem lost on me...maybe i will start my own that dont involve giant trees and christmas knick knacks. i like to buy presents for little children but i hate tyring to find something to buy people that i barely know just b/c they bought me something.... i really just want to make donations in people's names...last year i bought my mom a flock of chickens that went to a family in Africa from Heifer.org. I wish i had more holiday spirit but i don't think i am going to find it in the next 10 days.

i hate coldness

we just got home after 4 days in Fort Wayne and I now totally recall why I do not ever wish to live in a freezing cold climate again. I totally wasn't prepared for the weather and I think I kind of forgot what it is like when it is -1 with the windchill...i mean i walked off the airplane wearing flats with no socks and i spring jacket. i hate winter..i hate everything about it. the icy roads, the way your boogers freeze the second you step outside, how it takes the car 20 minutes to warm up, the horrible dry skin for the dry dry heat, the grayness of everything, the brown sludge that results when the snow melts, how you dress in layers and after ten minutes in a store you are sweating and about to pass out b/c it is way to hot inside, the salt that stains the bottom of your jeans....everything about it is just horrible and I cannot believe that people choose to live in such a dreary depressing climate, especially in the wonderful cultural mecca of Fort Wayne, Indiana. I am trying to think of something positive of the cold ---i guess i really really like to wear scarves...i mean if it is 50 or below here i love to put on a cute winter scarf ..i think that may be the only thing positive about it.

i will post a few pics of our trip ..... dash got to meet his cousin Cooper..who is 9 months old and GIANT...i cannot imagine dash being that big in 7 months..craziness!!