where is my christmas spirit??

i do not feel excited about the holidays..i do not have any desire to put up lights, trees, stockings, and whatever other christmas clutter i have gathered over the years....in all honesty, i hate it. Brent put up the tree and it just takes up space and the dogs run into it and the other christmas stuff just sits around and invades the space of our everyday life...i wish i could just box it all up and put it away but i think he would be disappointed...maybe it is just b/c we live in a minature house but it makes me annoyed to look at it. I havent bought a single christmas present yet...i guess i still have time but what if i just boycotted christmas this year??? dashy is too little to care and what does a 2 month child really need that we dont already have? I know i sound really negative but the whole traditions seem lost on me...maybe i will start my own that dont involve giant trees and christmas knick knacks. i like to buy presents for little children but i hate tyring to find something to buy people that i barely know just b/c they bought me something.... i really just want to make donations in people's names...last year i bought my mom a flock of chickens that went to a family in Africa from Heifer.org. I wish i had more holiday spirit but i don't think i am going to find it in the next 10 days.